Unfortunately for them, this lent to my crtical attitue and skepticism about the doctrine I was taught.
Hi Elbear. Welcome to our nightmare.
Congratulations for not getting baptised. It gives you an advantage that you can exploit. I have that advantage too, so I have a bit of experience in that department.
You need to build on the critical thinking skills you learned. Being raised in a cult, we were taught how to 'compartmentalise' = using our critical thinking skills when the logic supplied by the cult supported the cult's teachings, but turning them off when confronted with reality/facts/common sense, etc., that was contradictory.
My advice is to study critical thinking skills. Get yourself the skills to recognise when you are being presented with faulty logic, poor evidence etc..
Believe me, you won't be troubled by the Watchtower's demons once you understand that they are just the figments of the Watchtower's fertile, and insane, imaginations.
Welcome to the best part of your life.
Chris